I really liked doing these talks with Sam. A deep dive on one of my favourite images from Iceland
Introspection / inside and outside of yourself
I felt that my previous post about ‘feeling less inclined to post’ on my blog a day or so ago, might have come over as rather negative. As much as I can see that it may, the message I was really aiming for, is that I think creativity is a highly personal endeavour. Like having dreams and desires that we do not share with others, there is something hugely personal in the creative realm of our existence.
My own creativity comes from a place of introspection. I am an oxymoron, in that I run photographic workshops, and having to explain what I do, and perhaps more importantly ‘why’ I do what I do, has not come easily for me. As someone who works more intuitively, having to dissect my own compositions much later in order to explain them to others, I have always had an inner-world where my creativity resides.
As a young boy I was into painting and drawing. As a teenager I was into music composition. As an adult I moved from music into making images. During all these stages of my life, there was always one thing that was constant: an inner-world of dreams and visualisations.
I think that to develop as a photographer, there is only so much technique that one can learn. Technique equals ‘formula’ for me. The rest is just experimentation and intuition. A hunch that the unformed idea you have may show some promise. The hunch that what you’re currently doing is the right approach, even though you do not know what the outcome maybe, is vitally important.
Trusting one’s own introspection. To ask questions of oneself, to be in a constant state of ‘feeling if it fits’, and re-adjusting things all the time, and knowing that nothing is truly ‘finished’, is part of that inner world I think that all creative people live in.
Being a creative person is also a little bit schizophrenic in the sense that we have to be able to be ‘inside’ what we are doing whilst at the same time remain ‘outside’ of it. I think this is why photography tends to attract more introverts. Consider the street photographer: Is he really involved in the scene? In a way he is because he has to be part of it to get those intimate shots. But at the same time, he has to have the uncanny ability to also remain outside of the scene, as an observer.
This is what is at the heart of all creativity: the ability to be part of the creation, whilst remain outside as an observer. You need to lose yourself in order to be surprised and do new things, but you also need to be able to fine-tune and ‘steer’ the direction of the journey once you find your idea.
There is far too much concern of what others think. Rating your creativity based on what others feel about your work is dangerous. It has to come from within. If you know and trust your creative inner world, then you won’t get lost.
This is what I mean by sharing less. There has to be space and time to reflect upon your own thoughts and feelings for your own work. Just because I create images, doesn’t mean I always understand or like them immediately. I often have to sit with the work, and sometimes it’s many years before I’m able to grasp how I feel about it. So why hand that responsibility to others before you’ve even figured that out?
So value your inner world more, and consequently, perhaps share a little more lightly.
The highest form of currency you have: is you
Since I started writing 13 years ago, things have changed enormously on the internet. In the olden days I often felt that I was able to listen to, and read someone’s point of view and feel their words coming from their heart. This is much more difficult now, to find those articles where you feel someone is coming from some point of authenticity. Perhaps it’s just because there is so much activity out there now. There are so many more voices, and for each 10 genuine voices, there are a hundred whom perhaps aren’t saying much, or if they are, they are selling.
I’ve been reflecting upon my own blogging activity over the past few years. I am posting much less than I used to. One reason for this is that after 13 years, it’s quite tough to come up with things that are new. But that’s not it. I feel the real reason is that I am beginning to feel less and less a need to share. In some ways, I feel there has to be a place for privacy and space in our creative inner-worlds.
We all have to keep a little back of ourselves. Everyone is in my view, posting too much, and in a way, giving up too much of themselves. You have to be more selective these days in my view, as to what you are sharing. We need to nurture, and care for our creative-inner-world.
I have also been thinking for a few years now, that photography is really a private endeavour. It’s an inner-growth thing for me. I think it is for many of us, but we get distracted by the social-media aspect of feeling we have to share what we do.
So I’d like to leave this post today with one thought: the highest form of currency that you have: is you. If you value your work, and what you do, remember to keep a little bit back of yourself. Remember to tend that private inner-world. It’s not really designed for being laid bare.
So value your inner world highly, and consequently, perhaps share a little more lightly.
Help fund a film processor
I am a film shooter. That’s all I shoot.
Analogico’s ‘dev.a’ film processor
Since January this year, most of my films have come back damaged due to poor processing.
I have decided it is about time I started to do my own film processing.
So I have decided I need to invest in my own processing lab, so I can process my own films. I've got my mind set on a dev.a machine by Analogico. It is a brand new 'fully automated' film processor, so this allows me to be able to walk away from the processing which takes 40 minutes per process (you can do multiple films in one go).
If you’d like to help fund this project, then I’m offering the following eight prints at a very special price. Buying one will help me raise the money I need for this machine.
Buying a print
All print sales below will go towards funding the film processor.
These prints are on offer for the month of June only.
Print Specification
Hahnemuhle Photo Rag Baryta paper
Epson 4880 print
8”x8” inches image size
Signed on front in light grey
Processing opinion needed
Update - I’ve just heard from someone who has been using the same lab as me, who is getting the same banding down the right-hand-side of the frame. I am satisfied that this is a lab processing issue. Since the lab in question has replied to both of us independently saying ‘we’ve never seen this before’, I feel there’s no point in pursuing this with them. I am therefore no longer wishing to work with this lab, and I think the best course of action for me to pursue is to do my own film processing. More on this on the coming months.
Since January, I’ve stopped sending film away to get processed, as most of it is coming back looking like the images below.
All my images pre-pandemic were 100% perfect. I just checked my last shoot which was in February 2020. All the images are absolutely perfect. I do not change film backs, often travelling with just the same film back on. The cameras have not been altered in any way since February 2020.
If you have solid experience of film colour development, and know for sure what this is, I’d love to hear from you.
I would grateful appreciate you do not email me if you just have a theory. That is all I’ve been getting feedback on for the past few months.
I’m looking for someone who has seen this and knows exactly what this is. If you do know, I’d love to hear from you.
Watching creativity happen
In this two minute clip, we see Paul McCartney give birth to the song ‘Get Back’. I think it’s a great lesson in creativity. Because for me, most folks are always looking for the ‘how to’ with Photography, whereas it’s not about ‘how to’, but more about ‘trusting your gut and going with the flow’.
In this video, we see the song ‘Get Back’ surface. I choose the word ‘surface’ carefully, because it’s clear from the very beginning that McCartney is just feeling his way through this. He puts no pressure on the song by trying to work out words at this stage. He finds the melody and the chord changes and knows the words will come later. It’s that level of confidence, or inner-knowing that ‘not knowing the entire puzzle, but it’s ok’ that is vitally important in creativity. All too often, I feel most amateurs who wish to improve their work, seek immediate answers, or wrongly assume that the professional knows what they are doing all the time. They don’t.
A professional creative person gives themselves licence to change things, and to consider nothing finished, and everything up for change. They also know they have to experiment, and try things out. Amateurs make the mistake of thinking that if they get something wrong, that this is bad. Everyone get’s things wrong, and even the Beatles had to ‘feel their way’ through their songs, often revisiting them until they got them right.
A great example of this is George Harrison writing ‘Something’. He was lost for a lyric that worked with ‘something in the way she moves….. ‘ and Lennon replied ‘ like cauliflower’. He hunted the right words for months until he found ‘like no other’. In hindsight it might seem obvious to you and I. But it wasn’t. He had to work at it. He had to feel his way through it.
So to me, creatives who are good at what they do, use their intuition. They trust how they ‘feel’ and trust when something doesn’t quite ‘gel’.
I loved watching how McCartney found his way through this song. He doesn’t know where it’s going, so he listens to it, and it tells him where it needs to go. I reckon all art is like that - it often tells us where it wants to go. We just have to listen to it.
When this works, you often hear song writers say ‘the song seemed to write itself’.
This goes for all forms of creativity. So listen to your gut, and trust your feelings on your work.
When we make photos, we disappear
I’ve thought for a while now, that making photographs is like a form of meditation. Because when I am busy making images, I seem to completely forget who I am, and all my daily pressures and worries completely disappear. In fact, I think when we’re busy doing something like making photos, we completely disappear.
In this fascinating interview with comedy writer John Lloyd (famous for Hitch Hikers guide to the Galaxy, Black Adder (one of the UK’s best comedies, and QI), John explains how having a breakdown in his 40’s, allowed him to gain some insight into what the purpose of life is.
He explains that when we are being as true to ourselves as we can, we completely disappear. Ego goes away, and any concept of ‘I’ disappears. When we do what we love, we become the most true to ourselves, and in doing so, find that being present, is about forgetting who we are.
Portfolio Development Class #2
Last year I ran an online portfolio development class. I enjoyed putting it together so much, that I figured I would try to offer one each summer, during my downtime from workshops.
So last year I recorded myself editing a set of images from Bolivia. This summer I am intending to record myself editing a different set of images: either Scotland or Norway, or perhaps Brazil…..
Just thought you might like some heads up. I think it will take me a few months to get the work recorded, and edited. So stay tuned.
Below is a refresher of what I offered last year. If you enjoyed this class, then I think another refresher, with different material this summer might be of interest to you.
Last year’s Portfolio Development on-line video Class
Portfolio Development video class 2021 (Bolivia)
£175.00
One time
Effort should appear Effortless
A few days ago I was asked to write a forward for a photographers book. It is something that I am learning requires a certain skill. The most important being that I need to take note of my first impressions of the work within the book.
With the actual book in question, the first thing I realised was how effortless the compositions appeared. I have thought now for a very long time, that anyone who is able to convey something and make it look effortless, has spent many hours behind the scenes working on it. A Gymnast at the Olympics can make their work look so easy that many of us may consider that we could almost do the same thing with practice. Or perhaps you’ve watched a musician play and thought´I´ll get a bass guitar like theirs, and I should be able to play like them´.
Easy things look easy, because underneath, they aren’t easy at all. It takes practice, effort, many hours, self-learning, constant self review, to make something look easy.
When we are able to pull off this feat, there tends to be one large issue: the skill and effort and artistry is often devalued. Anything that looks easy, is by definition ‘easy’, and therefore I think it tends to lose currency.
So this brings me to our own work. When we are editing or curating our work, anything that does not quite fit, does not appear correct, or seems to draw attention in some unwanted way - these are signs that we have not reached the point of conveying our work to look effortless. Our efforts should appear effortless to the viewers, but if they are able to detect any struggle in our work, then the illusion of competence and excellence suffers.
Take heed of what you feel isn’t quite right. Take heed of what you can’t quite fix. Take heed of anything you think ‘most folks won’t notice’, because the truth is: all these signs are telling you that the work is incomplete.
On my way to Lençóis Maranhenses, Brazil
Image courtesy of my friend and tour participant this May: Jure Jalič
i just finished up a trip in the Puna de Atacama, Argentina with a really nice group. Our tour had been postponed for 2 years, and it finally happened these past 10 days. It was great, and we saw some new things whilst in there. I hope to publish some new images from this area later this summer once my films are processed.
I am now in Sao Paulo, just waiting to board a flight to Sao Luis. This is for a private trip to Lençóis Maranhenses (this is not a tour or a workshop). I have around 2/3rds of a book ready on this beautiful place, but felt I needed to come back to work on some more images.
I really love South America. Such an amazing place.
(inset photo: myself and my friend, Antofalla, Puna de Atacama, Argentina this May). I’ve found most of the dogs I’ve met in South America to be great friends. I am a dog lover, wishing to be the proud custodian with one myself, but due to too much travel, it’s not possible. But I enjoy meeting and making friends with many dogs on my travels.
